It’s such an interesting time right now in my life.
I am in a complete life transition and I am surprisingly at peace with it. Maybe it’s because I spent most of this year on the road in an RV, going from town to town locked in the present moment learning to trust that I would find a safe place to stay each night. Maybe it’s because I have been through transition many times before and have always landed on my feet. Or maybe it’s that I have learned how to trust the process and the loving help that is out there to guide me at a deeper level. Transition definitely isn’t always easy or comfortable. But each time a better, more rounded, self-aware and confident version of myself appears. Transition is a necessary expansion of who I am and who I want to become.
So, here I am yet again.
On the precipice of moving back to LA in a week or so and I don’t even have a place lined up yet. But that’s ok. I trust that I will continue to be supported and manifest the perfect situation like I have in the past. Someplace that is quiet and safe and allows me to feel creative as I step into new versions of myself while also honoring the parts that are still with me. Believe me when I say there was a lot of shedding the last
year and a half. It’s been an uncoiling and letting go of ways and means that no longer serve me. And it was all precipitated by my cancer diagnosis two years ago. It gave me permission get off of the hamster wheel that I was on, say no to things I didn’t really want to do and take a deeper look at who I thought I was and the reasons behind the choices I was making. Life is all about continually fine-tuning ourselves. Paying attention, becoming more self-aware and making tweaks. Some tweaks are larger than others. There are many reasons why we make the choices we do and some of those choices become incredibly strong habits that are not always easy to break. And it takes a really strong experience to shake our shit up so that we can see clearly and rise above it.
I am grateful for this past year.
It wasn’t always easy, but it was incredibly rich and memorable in so many ways. I was given the chance to see incredible beauty, truly connect with and find commonalities with folks all over the country, and develop a deeper sense of trust within myself. But most importantly I learned how to truly love myself this past year on the road. And it has been incredibly freeing for me.
I am not sure what the next month or two will bring for me, I do know that I will be creating and living from the foundation that I knew was always inside of me but hadn’t yet accessed. One that is built upon self-love and that allows me to be all of me. Not the person that I thought I needed to be. One that was muted or restricted because of my own insecurities.
We are constantly learning and growing. The one thing I will always be certain of, is that we are here to learn about ourselves and inspire others in our own unique way. My hope in the upcoming year is that we all can continue to grow, learn about ourselves and share each of our own unique gifts with the world. I promise you, it will be a better place because of it.
In joy, love and laughter,